ImpostorMom

Families, ugh. I’m at my parents’ this weekend and generally I enjoy myself when I’m here but there is always some drama to be had. My step-father is an alcoholic and it almost killed him a year and a half ago. Christmas 2005 was spent in the hospital with my step-dad in ICU. He almost died and he’s been clean ever since. Well, at least he’s supposed to be clean.

My step-sister informed me that she has seen his truck outside two bars that he used to frequent on two different occasions. She didn’t want to tell my mom about it for fear that she would shoot the messenger. She didn’t confront her dad about about it because she is super non-confrontational. Both times she’s seen his truck at the bars was when my mom was out of town visiting me. Now I’m left with the task of telling my mom that he’s been hanging out at these places again.

I could never live with myself if I didn’t say something. Not saying anything is how we all let this go on so long that it almost killed him. It just makes me sad that I have to do it. I hope that he’s not actually drinking again, for my mother’s sake. Even if he isn’t, he shouldn’t be hanging out in bars, it’s too much temptation.

I have my own issues with my step-father’s illness. Sadly it has left me numb and distant from him. He practically raised me, marrying my mother when I was ten, but I find myself feeling very little for him these days. That makes me sad and it would break my mother’s heart. I can’t help how I feel but I certainly don’t want my mother to go through anymore pain because of all this. Ah, what a fun conversation for a Saturday night.

This entry was posted on October 6, 2007 at 9:27 pm and is filed under family. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.