I caught the virus
lie in bed most of the day
worst possible time

a sudden passing
still cannot believe he’s gone
it is so surreal

getting on the road
we should have gone yesterday
we were both so sick

feeling better though
we will make the drive today
a sad drive indeed

Yesterday had to have been one of the worst days I can remember. It started with 7am call from my mother to tell me that my step-father had passed away suddenly during the night. I have written here before about my step-father, his problems with alcohol and how it has effected our family. We all knew that this disease would kill him one day but none of us envisioned it would be so soon or so sudden.

I haven’t really had an opportunity to talk about it with my mother but she said that he woke her up during the night to tell her that he had stopped drinking. That he’d wanted to do it by himself and that he’d gone cold turkey. One second he was talking the next he wasn’t. She called 911 and did CPR and they were able to get a pulse but by the time they got to the hospital he was gone.

I guess after 40 years of alcoholism you can’t just go cold turkey. The body just can’t take it. I feel terrible that my mom had to go through that by herself and that I was not with her yesterday as she made arrangements. My sisters are there and other members of our family but it doesn’t lessen my feelings of guilt. My mother and I are close and I feel like I should have been there for her.

However, I also could barely get out of bed I was so sick with the stomach virus that has been lingering in Boog for a week. I’m happy to report that he has now gone 36 hours without throwing up so I hope we are done with that for a while. Now if I could only stop puking we can get on the road for home.